Over the past 5 days, I’ve been struggling to recover from what is without a doubt, the most intense illness I’ve ever encountered on the road. Even 5 days in a hotel room, anti-biotics, and an ungodly amount of cold medicine hasn’t yet knocked it out of my system. As I’ve drifted between feverish hallucinations of Kyle Maclachlan as Agent Cooper (rediscovering Twin Peaks could not have possibly come at a better time) hovering over my bed whispering at me, honestly deluding myself into thinking this was the start of the zombie apocalypse and I didn’t even get the chance to kick some ass (for a day or two, I fully expected to wake up a zombie), and blacking out whilst eating a banana in the bathtub (don’t ask), I had a lot of time to meditate on what I am grateful for. There are so many things. First and foremost, my husband. I truly could not have asked for a better partner in this world than Byrne. He took care of me, nursed me back to health, fed me, and even watched TV with me (this is very rare!), all while mixing our new amazing album at night after I went to bed. He is truly the best man I’ve ever met, and for my money, his equal does not exist. I am grateful for the natural gifts we both possess that lead us to music, and to each other. I am grateful that we make music that is truly unique and different, even if it holds us back sometimes. I truly believe it will be what sets us apart in the long run. I am grateful for the friends we have, who look out for us all the time, and don’t hesitate to help us whenever we reach out. I hope they feel the same as us. I am grateful for an inner circle that loves me for the insecure, silly, angry, oftimes whiny and temperamental person I can be at times. I am grateful for my friends, and even for the people who are not. I’m an underdog, and truthfully, the assholes really do give me some motivation to achieve greater and greater things as a musician. My music, life, and goals are always evolving, and I am so grateful for that as well. I never want to feel as though I’ve “got it all locked up,” or that I don’t need to work harder. One can always work harder, smarter, and with more passion. We are limitless creatures if we just allow ourselves to fail, and take it as an opportunity to adapt and grow. I am grateful for our failures, as they’ve pushed me be a better person, performer, and professional. And right now, I am grateful as hell for my first coffee in 5 days. Hot damn.
Posted on Friday, 13 April 2012